Constant thoughts and feelings of an ed
Whishing you could suck your thighs in like you can your stomach
Comparing yourself to everyone else’s body
Google search history: how many calories in a…
Surviving on thinspo instead of food
Feeling defeated before you even step on the scale
Zoning out more than you’re not, usually thinking about being thinner and thinner
Feeling guiltily for even considering a cheat meal
Keeping up the “I’m still eating lol don’t worry” act so no one suspects you’ve only had 349 calories in the last 48 hours
The fact that eating 349 calories is frightening
Staring at yourself in the mirror picking out what you hate most
Not knowing what to say when someone asks if you’ve eaten yet
Feeling a sense of pride when you actually stick to your diet plan for the day
Feeling a sense of intensified guilt when you don’t stick to your diet plan for the day
Wishing you were taller “so the weight will be distributed more evenly”
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